Comments on: Heath Ledger, a Year Later

By: Robin

Robin — Wed, 04 Feb 2009 05:03:03 +0000

Tricia: You have mirrored my feelings with your own. After Heath died I became obsessed with him and how he died. I was so very sad and actually felt physical pain whenever I would see his face or hear reporters talk about him. He was such a wonderful actor and such a handsome man. I too, suffer from insomnia, anxiety and depression. I fully understand how it could be easy to over-medicate yourself just to turn it all off. I will continue to enjoy watching Heath's movies and I will continue to miss him and wish that he could have woke up that fateful day last year and not devestate all of us that loved him. I know that he's up there in heaven being a gaurdian angel for his precious little daughter Matilda. I know for sure he's in a much happier place with no anxieties and no more sleepless nights.I wish I could have been there to save him and just tell him "it would be alright"......

By: bee

bee — Sun, 25 Jan 2009 18:18:23 +0000

i often have extreme pangs over the thoughts of one's death as well, to the point where people tell me I have problems :) And also found myself considerably in pain over Heath's. I too, don't feel it to be because of fear for my own life. I do however, find myself contemplating one's last moment, their last breath or breaths, etc... Whether someone knows they are dying or not at that very moment... What that is like. Was one alone, etc? What were they thinking, if they were aware? I don't want anyone to ever have to cross that bridge I guess, ever. That's I think my one true hope and wish, that no superhero, doctor could ever grant, and it kills me inside.

By: cloudviolet

cloudviolet — Fri, 23 Jan 2009 05:45:47 +0000

I share your sentiments (tricia and c.allen.) Sometimes I think about being there with him in his apt. before he passed and what I could have done in the moments right before to save him. Would I have even noticed something was wrong?I guess I kind of feel like I could be Superman and go back to save him. I was also noticing the time today...around 1:00 and after...wondering what was happening to him a year ago today. May he be resting in a much better place...

By: Aphelion

Aphelion — Fri, 23 Jan 2009 03:54:13 +0000

I am there with you. I was never a starfucker as you say either -- like you, I thought A Knight's Tale was cute and he was pretty, but he was a "boy". I changed my tune when I saw Brokeback Mountain, which was the next Heath Ledger film I saw. He inhabited Enis. Wow, that's talent. I barely noticed when he died. I remember thinking Heath was cool because he seemed so anti-cool he was cool, so anti-fasion he was fashionable when I saw the occasional image of him before he died. But I barely noticed his death. When Dark Knight came out, I went dutifully because I had seen Batman Begins and liked it. I was blown away by Heath's performance and I have been a fan ever since, even wrote some fan fiction featuring Joker. Sheesh. My husband thinks I've lost it and I think he might be right. :D I started feeling bad when I realized the immensity of his loss -- his talent was just maturing - he had so much promise and so much ahead of him. Now, I feel bad about him quite often and find today to be hard. RIP Heath. Missed but not forgotten.

By: c. allen

c. allen — Fri, 23 Jan 2009 03:53:14 +0000

Tricia,

I just read your article and felt like I could've written it myself. I too find myself still extremely affected by Heath Leger's death, with others wondering why I feel this way, including myself. I spent the day wondering what must have been going on with him while he was alone in that apartment,watching the clock knowing his time was ending. I think about his family so often and wonder if he had this kind of effect on people who never had the luck of knowing him, how must his family be dealing with life without him. I appreciate your article and just wanted to let you know that you're not the only one with eyes still filling with tears.